May 4, 2010
So, we are almost ten months into our journey. The journey feels much like a roller coaster ride, “The roller coaster ride through cancer land”. I almost feel as though we were naive and innocent to the “c” word before brandon’s diagnosis. We knew cancer existed out there (the outside world) but it didn’t make its way to our door step until last summer. Since then, I have found many, many fellow survivors and have even made close friendships with some. There is often an immediate bond with someone living in the cancer bubble just as we live daily. I have sadly seen some of those wonderful people earn thier angel wings. this has probably been the most heart wrenching of all. to connect with others that are fighting the good fight and then to see them escape the disease by means of gaining eternity. Its almost paralyzing to us at times. We are young, we are just starting to live and damn it, we just want what most take for granted; TO GROW OLD TOGETHER! We have came to the conclusion that this cancer, this disease, this hurdle, this valley, is just that. God, for some reason believed this cross we could bare. He knew that before we did. I am not gloating, but we have a wonderful life, a great marriage and two precious children. I guess god thought we could make room for the “c” word. God never promised that life would be easy, but he always promises to be there when it isn’t. I am more thankful for that then I have ever been. FAITH is what has made it possible to get from point A to point B. in the beginning, point A was finding a way to get out of bed and point B was to get through the hour following the one before. now, point A is feeling elated from having a perfect pet/ct scan to point B, having faith that the next pet/ct scan in 3 months will reveal the same news. Well folks, its that time again. Brandon will be having his pet/ct scan this Wednesday. We feel as though more good news will be revealed because he looks wonderful, he feels great and IT JUST HAS TO BE PERFECT NEWS! I also think god is ok with the deal we made in the beginning (to god: you let me keep my husband and i will shout as loudly as I can to get this under funded disease the attention it needs). so, we are proof that hurdles can be jumped over and hoops jumped through. Brandon has been and is the meaning of a TRUE SURVIVOR! You have the ability to be one as well!
p.s. sorry its been so long since the last update, WE HAVE BEEN LIVING LIFE. ; )