Sleepless Nights

September 1, 2009

Without my pain meds, I’m back to sleepless nights.  The pain is back full force and if I can get to sleep I don’t ususally stay asleep.  Turning over in bed is enough to wake me up or I wake up with burning chest pain where the mattress touches me. Laying down flat seems worse that sitting up.  I just don’t sleep that well sitting up.

Tonight, however its more stomach issues- I think. I ate dinner and maybe should have passed. Its been 7 hours and still feel full. That pushes up to my chest and makes the burning worse.

I have lots planned for tomorrow… and the frustration of not sleeping is bothering me.  Nothing worthwhile is on TV in the middle of the night–I’ve already watched CNN until it has repeated itself. I used to enjoy the middle of the night– when I had time to myself.  That was before cancer.  Now I hate it… just much too still, much to quiet, and much too dark.

I just simply think they should play the really GOOD movies during the night for all of us who just can’t make it through the night.