Feeling better

August 29, 2009

The vomiting is more under control.  I haven’t vomited in several days, although I still feel like my abdomen is bloated.  Compazine seems to work on the nausea.  The pain is much worse without my pain meds, however and there is never a time I’m not in pain.  It’s just varying degrees of pain.

On Wednesday I had a gastric emptying study; which shows that my stomach doesn’t empty well.  They think this might be an effect of the chemotherapy drugs I’ve taken in the past.  I’m not so sure. I don’t know why I’m having such issues now.

On Friday, I went to an Intervential Pain Specialist who said while they maybe able to help maintain my pain to a degree they most likely will not be able to get rid of it at this point.  That was disheartening. I really want the pain gone without medication and the medication side effects.  Some days are better than others. Some days it feels like I have the flu– with increased pain and extreme nausea vomiting. Other days, I feel pretty good.  Its hard to make plans because I never know how I’ll feel.

So far, I’ve been able to maintain at work and continue to go in on my scheduled days.  It take quite a bit of planning– I plan nothing on the day before I’m scheduled to work so that I will have enough rest to get through the next day.  Somehow, the inability to work everyday feels embarrassing to me. Like a weakness or something.

I keep praying for more good days than bad days.  Right now they seem pretty equal and I’d really like to tip the scale to more good days than bad ones.